[am.biv.a.lence] n [ISV] (1918) 1: simultaneous and contradictory attitudes or feelings (as attraction and repulsion) toward an object, person, or action
2. a: continual fluctuation (as between one thing and its opposite) b: uncertainty as to which approach to follow -- am.biv.a.lent adj -- am.biv.a.lent.ly adv