am ‧ biv ‧ a ‧ lent /æmˈbɪvələnt/ BrE AmE adjective
[ Date: 1900-2000 ; Origin: ambi- + -valent 'having a particular value' (from Latin valere ; ⇨ VALOR ) ]
not sure whether you want or like something or not
ambivalent about
We are both somewhat ambivalent about having a child.
ambivalent attitude/feelings etc
—ambivalence noun [singular, uncountable] :
O'Neill had a genuine ambivalence toward US involvement in the war.
—ambivalently adverb